Monday, October 13, 2003
one minute later I open the door to my apartment
nothing changed inside. Just some in my pocket
New York is cool even if they don't smoke in the bars anymore . Which is really boring . It is quiet and people seem to be more controlled . May be this was the goal
anyway I am looking for a new painting and that set me into my usual crisis. I feel in the middle of nowhere .I was talking to bill over a screwdriver. He said he loves me .
I said bullshit which was not so nice of me .
Reproduction & competition. He ask me to explain. I found similarities between the way one sperm is fighting to reach the target and one man trying to conquer all kind of more/less useless things . There is frustration in both cases and is not very cool . What if we try to live a non competitive way?Are we screwing reproduction?
He smiled as usual and he said go to bed you are drunk .
But I didn't. I left the bar and walked the streets. And I walked and I walked . I love the people hanging out after 10pm they are so different from the ones you see at 10 am . City lights and yellow taxi cabs am continuously obsessed with sight of the street. There are no shadows because of too much light. Flashes and noises , reflected into people's bodies.Love that. And the neon lights.Glowing and spreding their halo over . I think I smoked too much today . I am buying a hot dog
anyway I am looking for a new painting and that set me into my usual crisis. I feel in the middle of nowhere .I was talking to bill over a screwdriver. He said he loves me .
I said bullshit which was not so nice of me .
Reproduction & competition. He ask me to explain. I found similarities between the way one sperm is fighting to reach the target and one man trying to conquer all kind of more/less useless things . There is frustration in both cases and is not very cool . What if we try to live a non competitive way?Are we screwing reproduction?
He smiled as usual and he said go to bed you are drunk .
But I didn't. I left the bar and walked the streets. And I walked and I walked . I love the people hanging out after 10pm they are so different from the ones you see at 10 am . City lights and yellow taxi cabs am continuously obsessed with sight of the street. There are no shadows because of too much light. Flashes and noises , reflected into people's bodies.Love that. And the neon lights.Glowing and spreding their halo over . I think I smoked too much today . I am buying a hot dog
